I love singing. When I was little, my parents would do a mock beauty contest with me. They play as the host of the show and I, of course, a contestant. I would introduce myself, perform a talent and do a question and answer portion. We only had a voice recording back then because cameras are still in analog (am I too old now? XD) so recording home videos cost a lot back then. Anyway, we were able to keep one of the tapes (cassette tape, if you don’t know what I mean anymore) and I was able to hear my younger self with it. I was two years old when it was recorded, I was still a bit ‘bulol’ but I know a lot of songs. I sung nursery rhymes and it still makes me wonder how I was able to memorize all of that at that age.
When I was 7 (cue music, “once I was seven years old, Mama told me…”, hahaha! Funny XD), my mom asked me to sing at her high school reunion. Titanic was in at that time, and of course, “My Heart Will Go On” by Celine Dion was, too. That was my first public performance. I got complements and many people encouraged me to continue singing (many more aside from my parents, they’ve been supportive all along), so I did. From then on, I was asked to sing in family and friends’ gatherings and eventually in school programs as well.
In fifth grade, one of my classmates’ mom suggested that I enroll in Center for Pop Music Philippines for summer. It was my first formal voice lesson. I also joined recitals and mall shows back then. It was really fun and I really enjoy performing, sing and dance at the same time and all. I continued taking classes but stopped when I entered high school. We had school activities even on weekends and my mom also gets too tired over the week and wanted to just rest during the weekend, I couldn’t attend classes anymore. It was also around that time that I caught some throat problem that lasted for over a year. I couldn’t speak, let alone sing, at that time. I wanted to join the school choir but couldn’t because of my condition, so I decided to join the dance club instead. I wasn’t able to fully recover (vocally) so I never got to audition for the school choir.
Then, I entered college. In our orientation, one of the university choirs performed and invited us to audition. I really thought they were great and wanted to be part of their amazing group, so, a few weeks before the school started I went to audition. It was a first for me. I never auditioned for anything before. I got in as a trainee and I joined their rehearsals for a month. I also had a chance to perform with them when they were invited to guest at the grand finals in one of the country’s biggest singing contests at that time. The down side of all of this was that I went home really late and my mom isn’t used to it. I’m the type who goes straight home after school in high school and I’m an only child, so I can just imagine how worried my mom got when I started going home late. Eventually, school started and I kind of had (at least that’s how I felt) to skip the first day of classes to perform for my fellow freshman. My seniors said it was okay since nobody really give classes on the first day of school, but it got me worried. I thought, there will be a time when I would have to skip class for the same reason and I worried that those times might come often. I didn’t like the feeling of skipping classes and not being excused and also considered my mom and me not wanting her to worry about me all the time. I decided to quit.
The next year, I decided to join the college choir. I figured it would be less busy and less demanding compared to the university choir. I was right, it was less busy and demanding, but still I had to go home late many times. My mom eventually get used to it. I also didn’t feel the need to skip class for any performance since we were excused not to perform if the schedule coincides with a class. I also joined my org choir. This one only had to be active for around two months to prepare for the inter-organization choral contests in December. I’ve been active in these two choirs for almost all my years in college.
After I graduated though, I didn’t have the chance to sing and perform again. I’ve been planning to post another song cover on YouTube for months now. I’ve also been putting it off for about the same amount of time. I really miss singing and performing, and in the past two years I’ve only been singing in the shower. I have to do something. In the past, I upload song covers in YouTube a few times just because I felt that I had nothing to do and was bored. I now want to do that more often and not let whatever singing skills I have and developed over the years totally fade away.